Posted 6 days ago
I’ve always loved the idea of not being what people expect me to be.
Dita Von Teese (via reneexpearl)

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Punching yourself in the face as a means of self-defense. Your friends asking why your right cheek is swollen as you say, “I tripped.” Chewing on your tongue to keep yourself quiet. Making a hole in your throat every time you want to speak. Smoking six cigarettes before it’s even three p.m. Living off of frozen macaroni and cheese and coffee. Texting your friends back a few hours too late. Saying you’re sick. You’re tired. You’re busy. Closing the door to your bedroom. Closing the blinds. Forgetting you exist. Pulling the blankets over your head and not moving. Sleep as a means of escape. Sleep as a means of flirting with “goodbye.” Sleep as death, without the commitment. Same songs on repeat. Or even worse, silence. Your bedroom like a tomb. Your bedroom like foreshadowing. Bathroom tiles stained with blood. Bottle of pills in the medicine cabinet, but who the fuck goes because of ibuprofen? Belly empty. Eyes drooping. Head like a woodpecker tapping relentlessly. Begging, let me in. Saying, forgive me, I’ve changed. And you, the sucker, taking it back every time. The lies that get you out of bed. The lazy-eyed laments that are better tucked away. Heart like a sick dog with its head bowed panting, put me outside. I’ll be okay. I’ll be okay. I’ll be okay.
The Lies That Get You Out Of Bed | Lora Mathis  (via ordeals)

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Posted 1 week ago

skarodegradation:

kanyemotherfuckingwest:

shavingryansprivates:

remember when we were kids and we used to all sing that demented version of the barney song where it was like “i hate you you hate me let’s go out and kill barney”

i don’t remember ever doing this. you were a fucked up kid

i hate you

you hate me

let’s go out an kill barney

with a baseball bat

and a 4x4

NO MORE PURPLE DINOSAUR

Posted 1 week ago
Convincing my dog I really threw the ball is the closest I’ll ever get to being a magician.
Posted 1 week ago

"he said he didn’t love me any more because i had too many problems (depression, anxiety etc).."

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Posted 1 week ago
It is a curious thing, Harry, but perhaps those who are best suited to power are those who have never sought it.

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Doctors are advising me to see a psychiatrist and try anti-depressants but I still don´t want to be here so I don´t know if there´s much point :/

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